This month Feb 2010 marked my 3rd year in Taiwan since I left Manila in Feb 2007. The move wasn’t easy and those who knows me, knows why such decision was necessary. But after 3 years, at times I do wonder myself if it was the best decision for me, or I’m just a crazy old fool…
Life in Manila I would say, I felt I lived a grand life. Go shopping in malls, drive my gas efficient new 2006 Honda City, have a fiancee, a job that is both stressful and challenging, a teaching job which I love so much.. but with all that, there were personal issues which was never resolved. So I left Manila hoping that things will finally settle down because I do want to settle. But what we want, we don’t always get our way… that is something we learn in life~
In Taiwan, living away from my family is not something new because I live in our employee dorm for about 3 years. But the fact that you have no one to share or talk with when you go home, or when you watch tv with, that is something I need to adjust. It wasn’t easy.
I felt from a “Princess Cinderella” life, I have turn into a pumpkin. Could you believe I have to pay a small room that is not even bigger than my room back in manila and it cost me an arm and leg?!
I never have to walk to get to places in Manila. Even just around the corner like 10mins walk, I would always drive~ lol…. Here, it’s walk walk and run for the bus!!! haha… I can’t believe I would walk at times like 30 mins to get to my destination! But you know what? Even with the pollution and rain, I love every single minute of it.
After 8yrs of ups and down and some really down down, by mutual understanding, we have to say good bye. Letting go of someone whom you consider your best friend, your fiancee and one day you hope father to your kids, it’s really hard. When you realized it’s not best for any of you, letting go at times is the best gift. A childhood friend of mine told me he can’t understand that. How can you let go of someone you love? When you care enough and want the best for them and make them happy, you will even if your heart is breaking. It’s selfless love because your not thinking of yourself. But I do pray, someday, I will find someone who will think I’m a gem hehee.. even if I don’t look like one =P
But living a pumpkin life isn’t so bad. Slowly, from a small place, I have moved to a bigger and with big window apartment! Gosh! I miss seeing the sunshine and hearing the rain!
All my life, I have love arts or things related to creativity and my parents just cant get it why and whom I got it from… I just do.Maybe I was adopted?! hahaa kidding~. I might have gotten abit craft from my mom, but she only does knitting. I do cross stitch, arts, painting and no knitting! haha.. In Taiwan, I got to learn how to make teddy bear which was totally cool… from there on, a whole world open up and I also found great friend where ever I went and I felt so lucky and blessed.
So maybe being a pumpkin isn’t so bad. They are kind of cute when you carved it :p You know who your real friends are and alot of them have help me all these 3 years because of some language barrier difficulty. I felt I have mature alot in my way of thinking, and realized what I want for life.
If someone ask me way before would I ever consider being a housewife? My mind have always been “stay at home wife? no way!” haha I think the saying that you get wiser as you get older, is true! If my future partner ask me one day, I would jump with glee this time! I love doing handmade stuff and it fit the “work at home” .. If I get lucky, maybe I can teach kids few times a week and yet take care of my own family. This would be a dream~ Now, I hope I meet this person! haha… One low down I notice here in Taiwan, guys look too much on the physical aspect of a girl. So simple old me, it’s going be a tough competition 
But I know I’ll get lucky… mmm someday~ haha
It’s almost new year… a girl can make wishes and hope right? Hope God will start answering my prayers…nudge ..nudge to God~ =P
